broken down lonely

I'm feeling the phrase, you dont know what you got until it's gone.

I feel so guilty

Why couldn't I just let go?

I don't even feel that way anymore, something's changed, I know we aren't meant to be

I'm coming to accept that, it hurts much less now

But one moment of weakness

One stray catty moment in a lifetime of good ones

And that's enough, to throw it all away?

He's the one bailing on the friendship.  

I feel betrayed, and angry, excruciatingly sad and also guilty

I feel like everything I do and think

And especially everything I feel

Is wrong

I feel crazy, and stupid

I wonder if anyone's even reading this

I want to take this whole box of sleeping aids on my dresser

All 20 capsules

Of a low dose sedative

I wanna sleep until he comes around

I can't stand this, I need him in my life

I feel empty, meaningless

A shell of a person I was

I don't know what to do...